im gonna bitch

so i just realized i HATE this job.
sorry if u work with me and you read this, but too fuckin bad.

im tired of ppl NOT WORKING and making me work harder, im tired of talking to WEIRDOS
im tired of having these STUPID PEOPLE call in and say a bunch of bullshit that has nothing to do with anything. there are SEVERAL ppl here who i do like, but a couple i hate.
oh and by the way i had some guy up here tell me he didnt like me cause he hadto fix some accounts i signed up. sorry if out of the 600 accounts i signed up since i worked here that YOU hafto DO UR JOB on like 5 of them, but DONT SIT THERE AND TO MY FACE TELL ME YOU DONT LIKE ME. cause guess what.... ur someone I CANT STAND, so that means nothing to me, just makes me feel like shit for the day.
so FUCK THIS JOB ... cant wait to leave.


im out

here is just about EVERYTHING i will be doing this weekend.

damnit kanye

i have always loved the music, no doubt he's great...

and lately AKA tha past like 2 yrs... i have even liked HIM, since he has been saying he has matured, and grown as a person, and he ACTUALLY seemed to be doin ok, well with the exception of THROWING a TMZ reporters camera into the ground and throwing a hissy fit.

here is my question... why do ppl with SO MUCH given to them, FUCK IT UP SOOOOOOO BAD? look, i know its gotta b hard not to go to the grocery store without having ppl scream your name, but who gives a fuck ! drive back home in your maybach, sit back in your pool thats bigger than some ppls house, and watch one of your favorite shows on one of your many tvs bigger than my car.

GIVE ME ALL THAT ! i swear to god i wouldnt b acting like a lil titty baby, i would LOVE it, and give back instead of take away.

i lost all respect... its not cause its stupid "taylor swift" you do that same shit to ANY inocent 19yr old SWEET girl ... and its just WRONG. this isnt the 1st time... its not even the 3rd or 4th time he has just totally f-d up... we all need to forgive anything kanye does as christians... but damn, just cause you forgive doesnt mean you hafto like this fool.

sry this is so much, this just really upset me man, sucks to have someone go from someone you LOVE to someone you cant stand.

oh woe is me

let this marinade in yo mind fo a good minute (lol why was that so ghetto?)

Oh Jesus, i love you....
and i love Buddha too, Ramakrishna, Guru Dev, Tao Te Ching and Muhammad

Why do some people say, that there is just one way, to love you god and come to you? We are all apart of you.
You are un-nameable, you are un-knowable, all we have is metaphor. That's what time and space are for.

Is the universe your thought? You are, and you are not. You are many, you are one, ever ending, just begun.


oh Jesus i love you - cody



what do u think ???

THINGS AINT ALWAYS SET IN STONE

so i was just jammin kanye's Street Lights .... and for some reason every time i hear that song it just makes me feel great, and all i can picture in my head is Winter time, in New York City, just walking down the streets ... wrapped up in a warm coat, nose all red, cars and ppl just zooming by.... and i had this like epiphany .....

I HAFTO GO TO NEW YORK CITY !

so ... this December, im 100% sure... going to make a personal week long trip to The Big Apple....

if this sounds like something you would want to join in on then let me know, because im thinking about planning hotels and airlines next month. if not then hey, i would LOVE to b out on my own in a big city like that for a week. either way, i just got this kind of.... CALMING feeling just knowing i will be there soon.

CHELSEA SOCCER MATCH !!!

soooo ryan and i went to the Chelsea V.S. Club America soccer match that was held at COWBOYS STADIUM.... enjoy the pics.... the screen was BANANAS.

ohh.... and Chelsea beat that tan ass.

so. i got a cat !

i totaly cant wait to get back home n play around with her. lol she's being really shy so far, but i understand that she needs to get usedto the new place, as well as get usedto me. she's so pretty and exotic, i cant come up with a name for her, all i have is Adelle so far, i wanna give her an exotic, cool name, but i cant seem to think of one. if you have any ideas let me know.

San Diego's got me down..... : (

my lease is up in 4 months.... and i have reeeeaaallly been considering makin my way out to the coast and live in San Diego.
so being the scrupulous researcher that i am ... ESPECIALLY when it comes to MAJOR decisions..... i looked at almost every possible website i could to do some research on not just life in San Diego, but also the COST OF LIVING and kinda ran over the determining factors on..... WHY i love that area.... and all my dreams were shot to shit with all the ppl who had SO MANY negative things to say about that city.
this is from the message boards... : what others had to say :
1) prepair to be BANKRUPT living in san diego.
2) i hope u hate rain, because the average rainfall per year is 10 inches. (i love the rain)
3) too few parkin spaces EVERYWHERE and not enough highways so traffic sucks.
4) mass amounts of wildfires in san diego that will consume your home
5) tax is 9.5%


so yeah... wow. Tottaly crushed my dreams, now i guess ill look for my new Paradise where i can lay my head at.

ill update with what i find out.

HUMBLE

thats a great word... i was tought about the word HUMBLE in church, and how god puts this in our lives so that we can come to him thru prayer as HUMBLE servants and to be submissive to his will.
well..... with all the agrevation i just let leak out onto this blogg. i just got a call from a woman who was telling me how her neigborhood and herself are getting together to pay for an elderly lady's electricity in there comunity. it honestly warmed my heart. the same heart that 2 min ago felt like hurting anyone who bothered me today (i still might) (seriousely)

so i am now humbled by the good will that a few ppl still have now days...


ONE LOVE

PURDY

Buy me one of these decks

ANT HILL

so, i just walked outside to have a cigarette and noticed there was an ant hill.

well I'm a big KID so i grabbed the nearest stick and messed it up

so i could see the ants running around.

AFTER i did this i started to think....

that anthill was HUGE, i mean like a billion grains of dirt....

i started to think even deeper into this.

the ants are sooo small, so each ant had to work non stop for probably what I'm going to assume was a really long time to build this anthill.

and here i come, some guy with a place to live that cant b brushed away with a stick and just DEMOLISHED there home.

so while these ants are frantically running around trying to find out whats going on, IIIII start to feel TERRIBLE. like... i know they are a bunch of ants but....

come on... now they hafto re-build.

OR

maybe there like... man, this place sucks, were always getting messed with ( i noticed a cig had been put out in the hill earlier)

so they move some other place n start all over.

damn, i feel like a douche now.

i know its small and insignificant, but to me that just seemed like a shitty thing to do in retrospect.

sooo... it might b a very long time before i destroy another ant hill. if ever.

sorry little guys, i apologize.

(that rhymed)

aaaaaannnndddd i want this sink.

yes im ripping a page outa the ol' kwest book, but damn.... really, is this not AMAZING or what ?

O M G

Last night was cuh-rayyyzee

OUCH

OUCH !

k, sooo....

first thing i do this morning is jump in the shower, ez money rite? WRONG !

i have this like... Jacuzzi style tub, so to get in the shower I need to take like a 2ft leg lift to get in lol. wellllll.... i JUST WOKE UP, and i was all GROGGY n stuff. So im not paying attention, n what do i do... i BANG my big toe into the tub SOOOO HARD that it broke the nail in HALF lol.

no bueno huh?

as bad as that hurt it was NOTHING compared to the wonderful feeling of having HOT/SOAPY water run down my legs and RITE ONTO THAT TOE. cause i mean what was i supposed to do? b a big VAG n hold my leg outa the shower?

so yeah, NOT A GOOD START.

hope things pick up a bit.

BORING TITLE

mmmmm...... mondays at work ! just SO MUCH FUN !!! lol
i have discovered really quickly that if you dont have something to do, and something to occuppie youre time, you tend to get bored....
SO FAR... i have watched 3 movies.... 2 seasons of Scrubs ( fantastic by the way, SUCH a cleaver show !) and have listened to 3 new cd's blahh.... what im noticing is that im getting bored with things ..... i mean how many times can you read a blog, how many times can u play solitare or launch a penguine in a game????
FOLKS..... IM DESPERATE !!! plz gimmy some ideas of new tv shows i can watch.... dont say The Office, or Scrubs... thats a no brainer... ohhh n dont tell me some obscure tv show that ran in the 1950's that ill never b able to buy episodes of.... PLZ>and>THANK YOU

one love......

First sale ! !

I finally made my first sale ! It only took 3 hours of calls and going thru ppl with EL TERRIBBBBLLLEEE credit to find my diamond in the rough..... (catch the alladin quote?)
if not i hate you....
no for real, plz discontinue reading and proceed to "GO SOMEWHERE WIT ALL DAT MESS"
so yeah... thank you to the man from Chorpus who has KINDA DECENT credit !!!! woo !!!!

i think im gonna celebrate by going home n havin a BOTTLE of wine. lol FAG

Shocking info

so today im officially a new Texas Power sales guy thingy person.
seems like no matter how smooth things seem to be going, i always hit the ONE bump in the road.... my ERCOT program isn't working.... urgh ! so here i am.. THE NEW GUY, constantly having to BOTHER ppl with my NEW GUY QUESTIONS lol, and ON TOP OF THAT... nooooowwww i hafto say... " hey ex'zavia... can u run this on you're program ?"
i just hate to b a hassle.. and until this gets fixed that's all i will come off as ! sucks.

OHHHHH and on my way back from lunch, i HIT A BIRD ! lol ugh, im a dick, n i can b mean, and i HUNT but... running a pigeon down at 55mph with ur HONDA doesn't seem like good sport . sooo... my heart goes out to u little sailor of the skies